Rainbow Baby

Week 27 today.  So far so good.  Baby is kicking harder now.  Don't even want to think what will happen in the last trimester. Swollen feet is a normal sight.  Knees are also aching due to the extra weight, I think.  Good that hubby is back and I get my regular massages. Still wondering if I want to get a baby cot for the baby or not.  I do prefer to co-sleep as it is easier to breastfeed.  DH has decided to sleep on the floor during those times.   Can't fit into most of my clothes now.  I think I should get another maternity blouse to last until delivery.  And nursing bras too. What else?  Also wondering if I should get a breast pump now itself or wait until after delivery.  But I know I can't depend on others to get this for me, not even DH.  So, I probably will get one before delivery. I am getting lots of pre-loved items.  Car seat, baby craddle, diaper changing table, stroller, lots of clothe...

So, I did GTT last Thursday.  It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be.  But here's what happened. What happen? First, I have to fast for 8-10 hours before the first blood test.  On the day of the test, the nurse took my first blood test.  Then he came with a cup (dispenser cup size) and half a packet of glucose powder.  He mixed the glucose powder with warm water and told me to take my time to drink it.  Once I am done, I should tell him the time. I happened to meet an older colleague who was also there for this blood test.  He said he does this glucose test like every quarter of the year and it's like nothing to him.  His advice was to gulp the whole cup down.   I did as follow.  But I think I should have drank it slowly.  Because right after that, I felt queasy and wanted to vomit.  Luckily, I managed to hold it in because during the second blood test, the nurse asked if I vomited.  I said no.  He s...

I am due for the dreaded Glucose Tolerance Test (GTT) tomorrow.  I didn't realised that not all pregnant women have to go through it if it doesn't show up in their urine or blood earlier.  I have no idea why my Obgyn ordered this test for me because my urine has been ok so far.  Most probably it's because I put on 3kg within the last 1 month and my family history. I am not sure what to expect.  I will probably tell you more about it when I come back.  Pray hard that I don't have gestational diabetes. Why is it a dreaded GTT when I haven't even done it before?  Well, I heard horror stories about it.  Like how sickly sweet the glucose drink was.  And some drink until want to puke.  And on top of that you can't eat anything after you drink it and you have to wait 2 hours for them to test you.   I took a day's leave to do this test because I don't know how I will be after the test.   Oh well, when you gotta do it, you g...

I thought naming a baby is a simple job but turns out the hardest job ever.  You see, I want to give her the most auspicious name.  Yes, it's a girl.   I don't want to give a name that burdens my girl.  You know, like those celebrity gives those fancy names, like ahem, North West, ahem.  I guess nobody is laughing because both parents are rich and famous.  But if your parents are not rich and famous, then you are subject to become a laughing stock. See, I was given a name that makes my friends laugh at me and make it into a nickname.  I remembered my mom said she was too tired right after labour and gave the job of registering my name to my dad.  Both of them had decided my name, the Chinese name that is.  And guess what, my dad spelled my name wrongly on my birth cert that became a permanent joke.  He added a 'G' to the end of my name.  And because of that and my surname, my name became a joke that still exist till today, ...

Disclaimer:  This is entirely based on my experience and may or may not be useful to you. Today I would like to share my experience on bras during pregnancy.  Since this is my first pregnancy, I have no idea what kind of bra I should buy.   When I was in my first trimester, I already grew out from my normal bras.  But before that, just a little history about my bras and boobs. I have big boobs for a petite person.  I have been searching for a comfortable bra for years and finally settled with Wacoal.  Since my assets were bigger, I have to use underwire bras for support.  Before pregnancy, my bra size was 34D.  I also prefer bras with padding (not thick ones) because my nipples are also bigger.  Everytime I feel cold, my nipples would show and I really dislike that.  And because my cups were bigger, I can't wear like quarter cup or half cup.  It has to be full cup.  Otherwise, the breast will pop out.  So, sexy ...

I just came back from my check-up with Dr Jason Lim.  This time, I got nagged by him because I have put on 3kg within a month's time.  To me, I am very ignorant on how much weight I should put on but to him, he is extremely concern that I might have gestational diabetes because of my family history.  He said that reason he nagged me was because gestational diabetes is dangerous for baby, which I am aware of. I wasn't eating much.  Even rice I don't eat a lot.  But the culprit, I believe was Fresh Milk.  I drank a lot because that's the only thing that I crave throughout this pregnancy.  I told him I thought I needed the calcium and he told me to just eat calcium supplement instead. Baby size is 800g and I am not sure if baby is too big or too small or normal.  I forgot to ask.   I also got a tetanus jab which is a routine jab recommended by Ministry of Health Malaysia.  During the jab, I spoke to the nurse and she said all D...

You have to listen to this.  For those who are not familiar, the singer is Ramin Karimloo, an Iranian who had migrated to Canada but now living in UK with his British wife and 2 sons.  He was selected to be the Phantom in the musical, Love Never Dies by Andrew Lloyd Webber. Love Never Dies is kinda like Part 2 of The Phantom of the Opera.  It was not as successful as the predecessor and the show has been stopped. The thing is, I have heard this song many, many times.  I love the tune and the lyrics.  It's very touching at the same time very impressive song.  But Ramin has brought it to a whole different level. I have heard it sung by other Phantoms.  But none as good as him.  And the weirdest part is, I have heard Ramin singing the same song while in the musical, I have also heard him singing in other venues, but, none as good as this one that was performed in the Olivier Awards.   You can feel every feelings, the sadness,...

Did you read the news that recently Kim Kardashian who is currently pregnant with her second child lamented that being pregnant is 'disgusting' and 'worst experience' of her life?  I find some of the comments given by the public quite funny.  Like few of them said that she will feel better if she wears some maternity clothes, instead of those tight, not-so-modest clothes.  But seriously, I don't understand why she can loath pregnancy so much when she wanted to get pregnant in the first place and was struggling to get the second child and had to do some fertility treatment?  God gave you what you want and you complained about the side effects.  Oh well. For me, I do have my complains as well.  The experience of being pregnant is completely new to me and so every changes in my body is new and somewhat uncomfortable.  I don't loath being pregnant.  Things I like about being pregnant is I can feel baby's movement and it makes me feel so real. ...

Recently upon hearing that caesar in Sunway Medical could come up to RM13k with GST and a colleague who just gave birth via caesar at University Malaya Medical Centre and paid about RM1k for the whole thing, it makes me start to wonder. Some bloggers who had a premature baby for the first pregnancy also said that the cost of NICU at private hospital is a bomb.  And some would rather register in Government clinics because cost is lesser and better equipment too.   For me, I really, really don't know.  I am so comfortable with Dr Jason now that I feel reluctant to change but at the same time, I am worried about the rising costs. Yes, we did set aside the cost for baby and all and my biggest wish is to have a natural birth, not because I want to save money but because I want to really experience what it's like to give birth naturally.  Of course, natural delivery will be much cheaper compared to caesar. But then again, so many things are unpredictable a...

Do you believe in Karma?  I do.  Remember I wrote about a friend who commented why I had miscarried so easily?  I just found out that after the first child, she struggled to get pregnant again.  According to her it took her half a year to get pregnant, but her son is already 5 years old.  But now she is pregnant and we are due about the same time.  I am happy for her.   I don't know if it's Karma.  Whatever it is, all is good now.  Just be kind to people and don't judge too quickly. Sometimes I am very thankful to have very supportive friends around.  Few days back, I met with my old school classmates whom I have been avoiding for years because they all had kids and all but here I was struggling.  In fact, I have unfollow all of them on Facebook.  This time, it felt different.  I got a lot of tips on how to breastfeed, how to deliver my baby, where to buy cheap baby things, what brands are good, what to buy, what ...

So, when my husband decided to go back to his hometown overseas for a month to sort out some family matters, I told him I will be ok because I am still in my second trimester.  I told him to go before I get any bigger and before the third trimester. He has gone for a week and here I am suffering and missing him tremendously.  There's something about being pregnant and not having your husband around.  I am not sure if everyone feels the same.  Or maybe he was pampering me too much when he was around, like I get daily massages for my feet and wherever that is aching and he did everything, all the chores around the house. The first few days I was pretty fine with it.  I even told him that I am having the whole bed to myself and I can toss and turn anywhere I like without him there.  I also did some cleaning and washed the toilet.  I told myself, yes, it's a piece of cake even with my swollen and careless fingers. A week passed and then it hit...

A letter for the little one inside me: Hi baby! I do have some expectations of you and I hope I am not pouring out my unfulfilled ambitions and hoping for you to fulfill them.  I just wish for you to grow up as normal and as healthy and as good as it can be. I do not hope you will be like me or your dad.  I am not talking about looks.  Please don't be lazy like both of us.  Please be a spiritual person.  Please do more for the society. I pray you will be wise and innocent always. I pray you will be as talented and creative as can be. I pray you will be a satisfied and contented person. I pray you will be a brave, courageous and secured person. I pray you speak sweetly with nectar in your words and be diplomatic in your ways. I pray you become egoless and not conditioned. I pray you will be a deep, spiritual individual with strong connection with the Divine. I hope I am not asking too much.  We hope you will be a good, gentle per...