Rainbow Baby

Baby is 8 months old today.  And today I am submitting my overdue report card.  Supposed to do a report card at 6 months.  But never too late! So what's happening now?  Baby knows who is who.  She still can't call me or her father yet.  But she will make sounds like 'Ay', 'Haro', 'Ada', which is so cute.  She is very good with eating solid food and at the same time very good at drinking milk, direct latch.  She hasn't started teething.  She knows how to crawl.  She knows how to stand and cruising along furniture.  She think she can stand on her own without anyone supporting her.  She can climb up the stairs without help. Speaking about breastfeeding, I just want to share my experience again.  I might have written about this preciously. After 40 weeks of an uneventful pregnancy, I gave birth after being induced.  I gave birth vaginally with the help of epidural and vacuum.  I managed to latch baby aft...

I have not thought about having a second child.  Financially and resources doesn't permit for the time being.   However, I do not want Baby to be the only child.  Yes, she has her cousin to play with and to grow up with.  But it is different. I also don't want the responsibility to look after both of us all fall on herself, alone.  If she has a sibling, they can share the responsibility.  But of course, I don't want to be the burden to her. When the time comes for us to try again, I will do the following:: 1. Hopefully TTC will not be such a pain and will be quick. 2. Since my pregnancy with Baby was uneventful, I would like to keep it that way.  Only thing different is I will probably go to KKIA for my checkups instead of private hospital.  I might deliver in a public hospital too.  I would prefer caesarian this time because I have history of unripened cervix.  I do not want to be induce.   3. Start to pump...

I am sure everyone know by now the power of breast milk.  If you don't, the advocates are not working hard enough.  The simple thing as Google will lead you to more info. I fell sick for the second time since giving birth.  The first time was when baby was a month old.  I have already warned my husband to be super careful and any sign of falling sick, should immediate remedy with drinking more water and taking Himalaya Septilin as it has proven to prevent the onset of the sickness evolving further. But you can't prevent the bacteria or virus from coming to us, no matter how careful we are.  So, he fell sick and I was in confinement and eventually, I fell sick. It was a miserable time as I was still struggling with breastfeeding and trying to get my life back in order.  And the biggest worry was that baby was so young and I was scared she will fall sick. But miraculously, no matter how bad my flu was, the bacteria and viruses avoided her and...

It's Mid-Autumn Festival today and I shouldn't be writing a sad post.  This year is baby's first Mid-Autumn Festival and though she is not able to hold her lantern and walk (she would rather sit with her lantern and chew on it), I feel we are moving too fast and she is growing up at a high speed. Yesterday, baby is able to climb up the stairs.  Scary.  Not to mention she is repeating her name after us.  Talking.  Babbling.   What's more scary is how some parents can be so absent-minded till they can cause the death of their children.  Yesterday's news was about a 1 year old girl who was left in the car by her father for 5 hours.  By the time he found her, she was already weak and pronounced dead in the hospital. Accidents happened, I agree.  But this is to me is carelessness and attention is not where it's suppose to be.  It irks me more that I can imagine this happening to my family.  Because it's so real. Just as ...

This long weekend, I have been doing some introspecting, especially after my last post.  I was indeed saddened that I have made anyone depressed by my posts.  I reacted to that. Then I realised, my past posts on TTC were indeed depressing.  My struggles, my agonies, my frustrations were all out there in those posts.  Month after month of disappointment and when I re-read those posts, I also felt a little down. I can understand if people get depressed and unhappy when reading those posts.  I get where you are coming from. So from now onwards, I have decided to write happy posts.  I feel there are too many unhappy things out there, events, incidents, news, you name it.  We need to change it by spreading some possitivity. I am not here to please anyone and I am not changing my writing style because of what people commented.  I do realised that I need to keep things in perspective and this is after all my blog. Long ago, I created...

My itchy hands decided to type this blog's name on Google and found things that made me react,  so much so that I have to blog with my mobile to write this. Someone commented somewhere that my blog made those still TTC-ing depressed.   Because I wrote so technical about the challenges on TTC.  It scare them. For this,  I apologise.   I didn't mean to make anyone depress.   Never my intention to create this blog in the first place. I understand that my blog is public and the whole wide world can see it if they happen to chance upon some keywords in my blog.   Which is why I prefer to write anonymously because I prefer my private life to be protected. TTC was a difficult journey for me and I am sure it is the same for many women who are still waiting for that BFP.  But the good news is,  I made it.   And I am sure many will also make it if you just have faith. I know sometimes faith alone cannot change the co...

Haven't been blogging for a bit.  Been busy and lazy at the same time.  My latest obsession in kdrama didn't help much with the blogging too.  I am just going to cramp everything into one post. Separation Anxiety Been taking baby out on my own to let her get to know new people.  She has been having separation anxiety and always sticking to me.  But it's good to know there's progress.  She screamed for 5 minutes and then would sleep off.  Still very wary of new people, even though they are mommy's friends. Development Progress She is good in crawling, though she is not one of those commando style ones that goes really fast.  She is taking her own sweet time to crawl to things that interest her.  Otherwise, she is happy to just sit and grab whatever is near.  Lately, she is learning to stand with no hands.  And she loves it when she manages to stand without holding anything or anyone holding her and she can stay standing ...