Rainbow Baby

I used to envy others for their life.  I always compared myself with the others, on how they are doing so much better than me while I am still stuck in a rut.  So much so that my good friend told me to pull myself together and that some people are good at showing what's good but not what's bad about them that I don't know about those bad things.  Which is true, but I am so used, probably conditioned by my upbringing that I compared excessively.  When in school and college, I compared my results with my peers.  When at work, I compared my position, my financials, my relationship status, my everything with my peers. ~ How come they can buy a big car while I can't when we used to study together and start work together? ~ How come I don't have a boyfriend when it's so easy for others to find one? (back when I was single) ~ How come I can't have a baby when so many undeserving people are popping babies every minute? (when I was TTC-ing) ~ How come ...

Baby hit 1 year old on 28 Jan 2017.   That marks 1 year of breastfeeding and the irony of it,  having a milk blister on that day too.   Ouch! Baby has started to suckle for fun and thus not getting the milk out on purpose and causing the milk blister.   She likes to suckle to sleep.  And now likes to climb over me or her dad while still in dreamland. This 1 year,  I didn't exclusively breastfed or pumped.  I had to mixed with formula occasionally until about 6 months.   I still remember when she turned 6 months and the supply was low, as in only left with 2 bottles in the fridge,  we started her with solid immediately and was able to save the bottles for the next day. I was a low supply mom.   Never leaked.   Never had more than 3 bottles in the fridge in 1 day of pumping.   Never had mastitis.  Bought the milk storage bags but never got to use them as I don't have enough to ...