Rainbow Baby

No, I am not pregnant.  Was kinda regretting not having a second child, but I think we are better this way.  Though many are encouraging me to try another one, but pregnancy at 4.0 is not going to be easy. Now that I am not pregnant, I would like reminisce the time when I was pregnant.  So many taboos I have broken and so on. Just now, I read a sad news about a soon-to-be mother, who listened to this group of mothers on FB about not to induce the baby, and her baby died at 45 weeks.  So, please, please, please, do not listen to the mothers.  Follow your heart, if you feel something is not right, please go to the hospital right away.  Stop asking for advice on FB.  None of us are experts and they are only advising you based on their own experience.  Every one is different.  Every pregnancy is different.  Every labour is different. OK, back to my pregnancy 3 years back.   Travelling Q1:  Can pregnant mothe...

Disney Renaissance Era was at its peak during my childhood.  So I got to watch all the movies then, started with The Little Mermaid, Beauty and the Beast, Aladdin, The Lion King, Pocahontas, The Hunchback of Notre Dame, Hercules and Mulan.  Except for Tarzan. Here's my honest review about them.   The Little Mermaid I was in my primary school when I first watched it.  While I really love Prince Eric, I felt Ariel was a bit of a fool.  Imagine I was 10 at that time and I felt that.  I love the songs though, all of them were very nice, especially 'Under the Sea' and 'Kiss the Girl' and 'Part of Your World'.   When Ariel lost her voice, I was so frustrated at how silly she could be, to give up her voice so that she can have legs to meet with Prince Eric.  I mean, come on.  And the whole process of trying to get Prince Eric to kiss her without telling him who she was because she can't talk or sing is a bit frustrating. ...

During the Raya break, took my little girl to watch Aladdin.  We enjoyed it thoroughly and she watches it immensely only at the singing parts and started walking around during the talking parts. I have watched the 1994 version before and I find the real life version very similar to the 1994 cartoon version.  The songs were build up with a bit more modern tune compared to the classic ones, with a bit of rap here and there and some EDM (Electronic Dance Music) here and there.  I have been binge-ing on the soundtrack before the movie, both versions and found that they added more electric guitar, more tabla (Indian classical drums) and tweak a bit to sound more Arabic like to it compared to the classical version. Character wise, I really love Will Smith's portrayal of the Genie.  Although no one can ever beat the Robin Williams's version in the original version, but Will Smith gave another portrayal, which is quite true to the original version and yet his own pe...

So, the latest news was the wife have forgiven the husband.  It was announced on Instagram.  Those who are aware of this, would know who I am talking about.  While it has nothing to do with me, neither a fan of any of those involved,  I feel the need to say this from my heart. To the wife, the purportedly victim in this whole incident. I know you have forgiven him and you did it based on your religion.  But I hope you know that no matter how religious a person, if he wants to cheat, he would not think of his religion at all. While he tried to hide his actions, he did daringly do it in a public transport.  Was he thinking of you at that time?  Was he even thinking of his religion?  No, I don't think so.  Even if there wasn't a camera in the taxi/Uber/Grab, the driver is a human right?  And the driver can report this to media right?  But your husband never thought about the consequences at all when he decided to openly ki...

I don't know why last year around this time, I was faced with some conflict with some people and was crying my eyes out for few days, mind you.  And this year, the same thing happened but with different group of people. In summary, what happened was I was overlooked for a promotion.  I would be lying if I said I wasn't expecting it.  I was.  And I hope there will be a big jump in my salary.  But no. In detail, the secrets of the underlying decision of who to be promoted was so ugly.  It was disgusting.  A person is not promoted based on his/her merits or contributions to the company or performance at work.  KPI was just a show.  A person was promoted because the boss like him/her.   Fine.  It's not like I didn't know the ugly side of this.  I have seen enough TV dramas to understand.  But to happen to me, I really didn't know how to face it or react to it. I was frustrated, angry and disgusted.  ...

Hello!  I haven't written since January 2019.  Lots had happened, mostly exciting.  Because of that 1 week holiday that I took to go China with the family, there was so much of backlog to do till today.   Today's post is all about my inner being, what's in my heart.   Past few days, I was feeling a bit down.  Got my letter of increment and found that the increase was quite disappointing.  Not that it was different from other years.  It has always been 5%.  But somehow, this year, I felt different. Since January, I feel my pay is way below what I deserved.  The company had refused to promote us simply because there are too many managers at the moment and promoting me means they have to promote the others same level as me.  My last promotion was in 2012.  So working for 7 years and no promotion since then. But, my job scope is the work of a manager.  I mean, who else can review the work of another ...

This is a subject that is a taboo to many and nobody likes to talk about it.  Past few days, this subject has cropped up many times.  In fact, past week, many heart wrenching events happened.  I was debating with myself whether to write or not.  But I want to get it out of my chest.  Please skip this post if you are not comfortable reading about death. Silent Mentor Remember I posted about it here ?  After going to the Gratitude Ceremony which is the last ceremony before the cremation, I have a different point of view with regards to this whole program.  It was truly an eye-opener. On Sunday, it was an emotionally-drained day.   It was the final day of the Silent Mentor program which my uncle who passed away in September 2018 is involved.  Let me just run through the whole program. At 8am, all family members met up at UH.  We were guided to the Auditorium in UM Faculty of Medicine in which the Gratitude Ceremony was h...