Rainbow Baby

I have to admit that I am not a perfect mother.  I have my ugly days when I shouted at my girl and would sometimes whack her when she does naughty things.  Especially on days when my patience run low, energy running out and spouse not helping.   But end of the day, when we go to bed, I will tell her that I love her and would tell her I am sorry if I hurt her and we end our rift before bedtime.   I don't pamper her as much as some does.  Because the grandparents are pampering her enough, so I am the bad guy in the family.  But at the same time, I let her know that I love her very much and that she is very precious to me. Enough said about what I do.  I just want to share what I see and hear. Recently, my girl was invited to a birthday party.  She is the youngest among the bigger girls.  There were about 7-8 of them, about 5-10 years old.  My girl was not shy and immediately went to play in the playroom where toys were aplenty.  At that time she was the only one ther

17 years ago, I witnessed the loss of a child for a mother.  My aunt lost my cousin sister in a tragic car accident.  Few years later, I witnessed another loss of a child for a mother.  A friend lost her only daughter to leukemia.   Before being a mother, I don't understand what's it's like being in their shoes.  Of course I wouldn't want to be in their shoes ever because when I lost my cousin sister, the grieve was too difficult to bear.  What more for a mother. When I miscarried my first baby at 6 weeks, I was devastated.  That was because I have accepted my role being a mother and was having high expectations of the days to come.  The pain was too much and I wouldn't even wish it to happen to my worse enemy.   After joining motherhood, I can truly understand the pain of losing a child.  Be it a miscarriage or a stillborn or a toddler or a teenager or an adult.  I can only pray that I don't have to experience that ever in my lifetime.   Hearin

If you have read my earlier post about swimming classes for babies , you would have an idea of our first class with this instructor which I will not name for privacy purposes.  Now this is not a paid advertisement by Happy Fish.  Neither it is a review since we only attended 1 class.  I will just share our first impression about Happy Fish at Sunway Pyramid. Long before I got pregnant, I came to know the story of the owner who started Happy Fish in Singapore.  It was truly from rags to riches kind of story and was quite amazing.   When I was searching for a baby swimming class when my girl was 6 months old, I found out that Happy Fish had opened a school at Kota Damansara.  However, I don't really like to go to that area because it is pretty congested during weekends.  So I decided to sign up to some place nearer to home. However, after 3 terms at this place which I will not name, I am not satisfied with the progress that my girl made.  I was also not happy with how th

With one and a quarter pregnancy, my body is wrecked by it.  I don't want to scare any future mothers, but this is a true story.  So, if you are trying to have a baby, please take note of this as much as possible, otherwise, you will have the same fate as me.  And I am not talking about stretch marks. Sciatica I first felt the sciatica pain when I was just about 7-8 weeks pregnant.  I remember there was one night, husband and I visited some friends and all of a sudden, I knelt on the floor and unable to get up.  The pain was sharp and numbing.  My husband have to press on the spot for few seconds before I can get up and walk again.  However, as the pregnancy progressed, I didn't have that pain so often.  Only once in a while, my husband have to press on that spot to give me relieve.   After delivery, that was when it finally hit me hard until now.  It's not something that can be cure by medicine or physio.  It's something that I need to be careful of.  Say ce

Alas, the drama ended with tears and heartache.  I must say, this is one heck of a drama.  The writer and director duo is the greatest combination ever.  First it was Descendants of the Sun (DotS), then Goblin and now this.  All are superb and the best. With DotS, I found many inconsistencies with the show.  Like how can the main lead kept on surviving is beyond me.  It wasn't realistic at all.  But it makes my heart flutters a lot. With Goblin, I fell in love with the bromance and the mystical story line.  Though I felt really uncomfortable between the male and female lead's romance due to their huge age difference and their lack of chemistry, I thoroughly enjoyed the show.  I wasn't in for their romance, but more for the bromance and the sword and the ghost who went for them. With Mr Sunshine, sigh, where do I start?  First the cinematography was captivating.  The story didn't start out on a popular note despite having the best writer and director and act