Rainbow Baby

Today I got the news that my ex-boss had passed away.  He was fighting with some auto-immune disease for many years.  He was not only an ex-boss, but also a friend and family.  A great man with a good heart.  A deep loss indeed. I am greatly saddened by the news.  I was in shock because I just saw him 2 weeks ago, not 100% healthy, but was walking here and there, chatting, organising, eating, etc. And today, he has gone forever.  My body is in shock and I hope it doesn't affect my breast milk supply as I am trying my best not to let this affect me.  I have no mood to work. What I want to highlight is the sensitivity towards this whole issue.  When I told a person about this news,  she asked if he had AIDS?  Come on, auto-immune system is attacking his own body.  No one knows why or how it happened.  Not even the doctors.  They can only prescribed drugs to keep things in order.  It is not AIDS.  How can someone be so shallow?  I have know this man personally for more th

I want to promote this Facebook group.  Please just type this group's name in the search field and you will find the group.  Currently, there are 30k members and going strong everyday. This group helps mommies to start a business or to promote their business.  This group is also open to buyers and whoever interested in the products.  So far, I saw lots of tiffin business, handmade soaps, bakers, cooks, tailors, masseur, selling products, clothes, and the list goes on. I am not a seller nor a buyer in this group.  I am a silent observer.  What I have observed so far, is that the mommies who posted are all very caring, hardworking, supportive and positive.  I like the positivity and the vibes that the group generated.  In this group, the mommies are very helpful.  In this group, you won't find a certain mommy being a keyboard warrior and sending posts after posts on her opinions.  In this group, you won't find people complaining or ranting.  In this group, there is n

Anti-vaxxers gonna hate me for this and I am a pro-vaxxer and not open for discussion or comments about this.  It's your choice to vaccinate or not and I chose to do it. This post is not based on any research or anything from Google.  It's entirely my own opinion.  If you disagree with me, you can keep it to yourself.  I am not interested to know. No, no, I am not angry or hate anti-vaxxers.  Not at all.  I understand your stand on it.  I have a friend who didn't vaccinate her children at all.  It's her choice.  Things like autism, MMR, mercury and stuff in the vaccines do scare us a lot.   But I don't get it when parents already opt for vaccination and have already given their babies vaccination from birth.  What's the point of telling them, look this is what vaccination has done and so your baby is at the risk of having autism because he/she had MMR and stuff like that?  Why is there a need to scare the parents further?  Those who believe in that

Sorry, please allow me to rant here.  Because I don't usually write such things on Facebook as there are many colleagues and friends in there and knows who's who.  I don't want to give names but this is work related.  I am this close to swearing and I have never swore in my whole life.  So you can imagine how frustrating this is. My boss told me to liaise with this person, A, who is our tax advisor.  Two weeks back, I called.  A said to send email as she is too busy to answer my query over the phone.  Fine.  I sent email with my queries. After a week, A did not reply.  I sent another reminder.  Still no reply.  This morning, I called A again.  A said in a very crude manner that she has already spoken to my boss about it and told me not to repeat the same question.  Also A said she will deal with my boss directly.  I said OK. I called my boss.  She said she has forgotten what A has told her.  And best part is she told me not to email or call A when A is in a bad

Lately, I have been getting plugged ducts and milk blisters.  Both are painful.  And I have no idea how it has suddenly appeared. Milk Blister Milk blister is more painful.  Feels like being stabbed from the inside.  If you don't know what is a milk blister, please ask Mr Google.   I have tried few methods to remove it.   First time it happened, I didn't do anything.  Baby successfully removed it.  It was on the left breast and it didn't happen anymore. Second time on the right breast, I used my finger nails to break open the tiny skin that cover the duct.  Again success.   Third time again right breast, I happened to cut my finger nails and was too short to pinch the tiny skin.  So I used a sterile needle.  I think I didn't do it correctly, ended up bruise and more painful. The milk blister did go away.  But I don't recommend this method to do at home.  Better go to a professional, i.e lactation consultant.   Then 2 weeks ago, it happened

Just set the comments to be reviewed before posting so that I don't get any more spam comments.   These few days, I have been accidentally coming across stories of mothers being left by their husbands while pregnant or already have few kids, unemployed or earning a low salary.  And they are very young women. Reading all these reminded me to treasure my loved ones and appreciate them.  My other half is not a romantic guy.  He never proposes and yet I married him because he is a nice guy.  When we got married, many relatives asked why I would marry him, because he is from a poor background and not highly educated.  I didn't reply because in my heart, we knew we were meant for each other.   Some relatives asked if he proposed to me and how it was.  I replied that there wasn't any proposal nor any ring before I agreed to marry him.  I just did.  I believe a marriage is much more important than any proposal or wedding ceremony.  I am not saying this because I am def

It's been a long, long time since I felt my heart heavy.  And today I felt it again when I received the email saying that my baby's hospitalisation claim has been rejected.  Truth to be told, I was half-hearted when I submitted it knowing the chances of getting it rejected was higher but I still did it anyway to try.   Then I felt there was hope.  My instinct told me so.  And I have always trusted my instincts as they were pretty accurate. But today, I have lost trust in my instinct as well.  My heart hurts. On top of that, today I have coincidentally bumped into a job position in a high-respectable company.   All the criteria for the job matches what I wanted.  Unfortunately the deadline for submission was yesterday!!!!  Double bummer. And the potential tenant has rejected my unit because they got a better offer??  So what now?  Double whammer. When will things be better for me?  WHEN???? My company do accept child specialist claim.  But they need me t

Sigh.  It has happened.  Usually, mothers reported a drop in supply when they have their period.  This is not the case for me though, but my supply has dropped today.  Dropped half oz every pump.  It's bad.   I thought I was a just enougher but now I am going to low supply. I can only analyze what happened.  It all started this week.  Baby was sick last week and there was additional bottles of milk in the fridge as she didn't have much appetite.  Because of that, I became lazy to pump and dragged my pumping session as mentioned in my previous post.  That's a very bad move.  Sob sob. On top of that, I thought that since my supply has been established, even if I drop a pumping session or shorten it, I should still get the same yield.  I was doing power pumping every lunch hour while having my lunch or tapao my lunch.  But this week, I decided to pump only 30 minutes instead of the 40 minutes power pump and have lunch with my colleagues again.  But no....it's

Yesterday, I bumped into a blog.  The blog was created by a Malaysian mother sharing her ups and downs with her son (now 3 years old), who was born deaf.   What I didn't realised was, I took for granted the newborn hearing test that baby passed successfully.  On the day we were to be discharged, while I got ready all the discharge stuff and payment, baby went for a newborn hearing test.  I didn't pressed further as to what it was.  In my mind, I was imagining they use some tool and make some sound and see if baby cries upon hearing the loud sound.  But the fact is, it is much more.  There is some sort of a machine that they hooked baby to and clicking sound is played and see if baby has any response. Then in baby's birth book, it was written that she passed the newborn hearing test.  I was delighted that baby is normal and ok.   Baby's hearing is super sensitive, somewhat like mine.  She jumped upon hearing the slightest sound, like opening doors and that w

The title sound so sexual but it's not.  This happened yesterday.  I came home from work and found baby fast asleep.  Husband also came back and already had dinner.  My parents and I have to go somewhere to do some stuff and we can't bring baby along.  So, told husband to stay at home with baby. Before we left, husband had dinner and shower, so that he can be ready when baby wakes up.  After dinner, I went for a quick pump.  When I came downstairs, baby is already awake and is already nicely fed, bathed and changed into her PJs. I quickly gave her kisses on her cheeks and forehead and promised her that I will come back soon and let her suckle.  Then we left. About 2 hours later, we were back home.  Baby is cranky and has been crying, reported by husband.   She hasn't slept since we left.  Baby gave me one look and started screaming.  My parents took turns to calm her down while I quickly go and grab something to drink.  No can do.  Baby still screams.  They ruled out

Yesterday, I read a disturbing post on Facebook.  Actually 2 disturbing posts.  First, it was a news report from The Star about an English teacher from UK, came to Malaysia and while acting as an English teacher, had sexually abused children as young as 6 months old.  I cringed when I read that.  He was arrested and subsequently jailed.  But that's it.  Just jail term.  Imagine the pain and life long suffering he had caused the children.  And I really can't imagine of the things he did.  6 months old???  They can't even walk or talk yet.  My heart sank. Another post came from a Facebook user.  He remarked that there is a WhatsApp group in Malaysia which are posting all illegal and pedophilia news and photos.  And the users are young.  He also warned us not to post photos of children on the net because these pedophiles copied the photo on Facebook and then post it on WhatsApp group and started their disgusting discussion about the poor child. Although he has blurred