Rainbow Baby

Someone has recently written about being a burnt out mom.  Coincidentally I am facing my own devils at the same time. If you read my previous post, you will understand the struggles I have at work. I am a full-time working mom with no helper at home.  My parents care for my girl while both my husband and I go to work.  My husband's and my off days are not together.  So it is very difficult to do anything together, let alone as a FAMILY. On weekends, I care for my girl full-time.  It can be quite overwhelming when I have to go toilet as she insisted that she wants to see me sitting on the toilet bowl doing my business.  Same goes for taking a bath or anything with the 'Me Time' feature.  Therefore, I hardly have any 'Me Time'. I still breastfeed my girl and still pumping when I am at work.  In the end, I hardly have anytime to do anything that I want to do.  I just have to cope. My husband does all the chores in the house because I can't...

This has nothing to do with motherhood or pregnancy.  In fact, nothing to do with the goals of this blog.  I just need to get it out of my system, once and for all.  Since I have already embarrassed myself to the maximum today, might as well just pour out everything. This is about work.  This is about my lady boss.   I have worked here for 7 years, reporting to 1 person the whole time and that is my lady boss.   From the beginning of the time I joined until today, I have never quite understand her way of doing things.  I tried to be in her shoes.  I tried to understand her upbringing.  I tried to understand her behaviour.  I tried to understand her so much so that I began to lose myself. Before I go into our history, let me just assert this about myself.  I respect people who respect me as a person.  That's the way I live my life.  I showed courtesy to others all the time.  Yes, I have done many thing...

Hi everyone!  It's a beautiful Friday and it's the last day of the working week and it's time to relax and take a break.   This morning, as I walked to my car in the porch, I noticed my dog, on a leash, looking very down, lying down and not move much.  As I looked at his face a bit longer, I noticed that he has aged.  Then I realised, I haven't been looking at him for a long, long time. Ever since I fell pregnant and given birth, I haven't gone near my dog at all!  My husband has been the one looking after him, bathing him, taking him for walks and feeding him.  And I did nothing. I was the sole person to take care of him.  My friend adopted him when he was born but after few years, she had to give him up as she moved to a smaller place and there's no space for the dog.  So, I adopted him after that.  For many years, we paid a lot of attention on him.  My father would trained him.  I was the main person to walk, feed, b...

Well, I have to pester my husband to get me a gift, like shameless kind of pestering.  Anyway, I have been so busy with work and baby, that I hardly have anytime to blog.  I just thought I will do this real quick.  There is this thing going around on Facebook for Mother's Day, about honouring Mother's Day and writing about my first baby, and I wrote it really short.  So, here's the long version.  Happy Mother's Day to all!  OK, belated, today it's already Teacher's Day.  Haha! 1. Epidural?   Yes. Didn't want to take it at first and I thought the normal pain killer would do, but heck, the pain is one of a kind.  After so many hours of contractions and having zero opening, I was already weak and tired and hardly ate!!!!  So, decided to go for epidural and never regretted!!!  God bless the person who invented epidural! 2. Father in the room? Yes, was on the phone with my mom when I was pushing and I had to tell him to ...